Yesterday wasn't an ordinary one for me. I was totally speechless and my heart was definitely full of bubbling emotions I just wanted to explode outwardly coz it felt tickling while burning,,i don't know for it was a mixture of feelings that just hard to explain..elation, euphoria exuberance,ecstasy,, simply happiness as it is called but to a different level.
Its been already 3 years almost when i First applied in one of the famous yet controversial Hospitals here in the City. Its my dream.. yes never just a hope..but a dream to be employed in that Institution because I can feel that the real essence of my passion to care would be best carried out in the said setting much more than the other highly prestigious and costly hospitals of the City for the reasons of the type and kind of clienteles and patients i would have been serving of...which pointing out to the indigent ones, the poor in the society, the less knowledgeable and the more broke and in pain individuals of the community. I strongly believe that Nursing as a Profession is a helping and comforting ...of which i think these kind of people would be glad to be given with such.
So, before i was hired being an Institutional Nurse of a Child Caring Agency, i already made an application to the said hospital and waited for its hiring process that had been taking long waiting time while i had been into working. It took me two counts of Interviews from the personnel selection board for the past 2 yrs just realizing that i never made it still though i knew i did my best out of it.Then i htought of the factor which i might be lacking before unabling me from getting hired..then that's it and i found out and made a sure way of it..and this time around i felt the surging confidence from me that its a heck if i cant make it still..out of 3rd PSB? its not easy...and the effort i made to patch up where i had been falling short before- the quota factor, i mean... i guess i really can make it..surely..with God's intervention of course!
After i found myself stuck in the house after i did my last way from my work as an Institutional Nurse, for a year and 5 months..oh quite long indeed..i thought i would have episodes of despair..thinking it might be the end of an employed status...temporarily i mean,,but i know for long since Nursing job nowadays is horridly making its way like an avalanche...oh my!..its awful..especially to the newly graduates and those who have enrolled just recently for nursing profession..i hope there's still tomorrow for them.
It's just like i rested only 3 months from a stressful, sugar consuming brain in my previous work..it only really pays for me to have a great beauty rest and lots of gaining weight after falling almost 10 pounds..and of course quality time for my granny who gets to see me only at night after a tiring work. All these for three months until just recently that happened yesterday...a good..well.. i guess the best news I've ever had this year arrived..and its was like given a birthday party with lots of balloons and guests..of which i had never had in my entire life so far...perhaps with my kids in the future. I was included in the 40 lucky applicant nurses to be hired as staff nurses of the said hospital..Woooh!!! a bid deep sigh was a relief from the mixing leveling up feelings of gladness and i truly thank God for i realize that when I my application got denied for the past 2 interviews...it never meant the end of the chance being a staff in the hospital...He just want me to take time slowly and one step at a time,,,i was working those times so,,,why should be hired in another if i am badly needed by the one i had been working with...Not until i finally Got out of my previous job...when He gave me the opportunity to go for my dream and make a difference out of my passion in the service to the poor through caring, comforting and teaching. With all these qualities i know,,,and i believe that i could be a good...or perhaps a best nurse that my patients would ever know!
When God gives me now the challenge to work in a sophisticated yet worth handling job.. i know its my time to prove the essence of a caring and competent nurse to be..though i can now envision how would it be very busy that needs presence of mind and initiatives, would be very difficult and full of dilemma that needs critical thinking in the work... still I'm hopeful that God will only be at my side and will enlighten my mind and heart for every decisions and moves i will be making in everyday duty and responsibility.
When God gives me now the challenge to work in a sophisticated yet worth handling job.. i know its my time to prove the essence of a caring and competent nurse to be..though i can now envision how would it be very busy that needs presence of mind and initiatives, would be very difficult and full of dilemma that needs critical thinking in the work... still I'm hopeful that God will only be at my side and will enlighten my mind and heart for every decisions and moves i will be making in everyday duty and responsibility.
These just make me deeply think and reflect how God works in mysterious ways of bringing the happiness to our lives based on the desires and dream of our hearts...and He just don't give it by the time we want or need it...He sees to it its handed down to us in His time...the right time...and we could only know it is if we dont make things in a hurry.
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